I found this topic on Pinterest… 31 days of self-love.  I thought, “wow, these are some awesome things to think about and self-reflect.”  So that’s exactly what I’m doing.  I am taking the month of March as a reflection on how I think and feel.  These may not be the most positive of topics, but they are real thoughts and real feelings.

Day 1: What is your biggest struggle with loving yourself?

I try to be kind.  I try to be fair.  I try to respectful, courteous, and friendly.  I try to be intelligent and learn new things.  I try to exercise and get stronger every day.  I try, because I am trying to be the best person I can be.

The biggest struggle with loving myself is having the confidence to do so.  As many other people feel, I constantly battle with comparing myself to others and not feeling good about myself no matter the progress.  It. Sucks.  Seriously… and lately, the negative thoughts have been so heavy and so persistent.  For example, I have been working out the most I have since high-school, I am trying to develop myself in my field of work, and I have started my life as an independent adult.  All of things are going on, and I still feel some of the lowest I have ever felt.  Why is that??

Lack of confidence is something I’ve always struggled with.  I always demand more of myself, which has not necessarily worked out badly for me, but I just put so much pressure on myself all the time that it has affected the way I think about myself.  I feel that I can never do anything right.  I mess something up, no matter how much I do right.  I stress out that I’m not good enough, not pretty enough, and not smart enough, and then I just can’t get that thought out of my head.  It’s overwhelming, honestly.

So, if you’re reading this and it sounds like you… reach out, and we can talk about it.  Even though I struggle with confidence, I do think that a positive idea to come out of this is that… all of the overthinking I do and doubt that I have drives me to be better.  So, that’s what I must think about.  I need to not compare myself to others but think of it as bettering myself.

Thank you so much for reading.  Talk soon.

Alli